At the start of the semester, I shared this post on my social media:
When I felt called to post this, I thought, "Whaaaaat??? School is starting...there is no time to do this...this is silly. Why would I do this??" However, this has happened enough times in the past that I know I just need to get out of the way and let God do His thing. So post I did - and what a joyful experience it has been over the last four weeks to serve in this way! Making a coffee run was a welcome break from the grading or added to ordinary through delivering to other moms during school drop off or pick up when taking Charlotte to school (thank you, Adam, for filling in a few times) to leaving a cappucino on the doorstep of a convent, to carrying out surprise deliveries for beloved friends, spouses, and inspiring mentors. I've been able to visit with people (albeit quickly since these are squeezed in between the regular responsibilities and roles I have), get to know my student researcher better, and see the joy on others' faces as they sip the latest concoction (the flavors change every two weeks or so around here).
My Dad would be so tickled over this latest service
project. There were many Saturday mornings he and I would fill our
teacups with tea and enjoy butter and toast for breakfast as a child and even
after I had grown and left home. It was something special just the two of
us had as a ritual. No one else in the family liked tea and to be honest,
the way I drink tea is much like how I used to drink coffee....make it to be
light brown with all the sugar and milk added and basically have a splash of
tea in the cup. He used to always chuckle and shake his head as he watched me prepare the tea. He was
satisfied, however, when I would burn his bread to a crisp black burnt
toast. He is still the only one I know who enjoyed eating things crisp
and charred like that. Dad was also always known for having a cup of ice
to the top filled with a (diet) soda or in his later years, ice cold
water in his cup in the cup holder, on the stand by his recliner, and in the
last days, was reduced to crunching ice chips from a small cup at his
bedside. Up until the last couple of days I watched as his devoted wife and us
kids brought him cup after cup. It was the least we could do after he had
poured out so much from himself for so many. He served his country in
Vietnam, worked a long hard career in and out of the Air Force, and put his
heart and soul into the lives of his children and grandchildren. I
remember, during student teaching, coming across a poem my cooperating teacher
had hanging up in the preschool classroom. I was so moved by it, I had a
copy of it made and carried it in my lesson plan book in all the states and
schools where I taught. I now share it with my pre-service
educators. I don't have a picture of the inspirational paper I have in my
plan book but I found something online that is close to it:
This was in the back of my mind when I posted on social media about Cup of J.O.Y. last month. What better time to try to spread some positive and cheerful news, right? :)
1) article published with colleague
2) article under review with colleague
3) monograph chapter submitted to publisher
4) book chapter drafted and soon ready to submit
5) major study concluded
6) other major study almost concluded and draft of that manuscript is nearly done but found out I'll be presenting with colleague at a conference next month
7) beginning literacy grant with colleague
8) about to start new study with two other colleagues
9) about to dive into High-Impact Scholar work on first year experiences and retention....yay!
All this is just scholarship...the service is blowing up in spite of the pandemic and well, teaching, I'm hoping my students are feeling like they're successful as students in my five courses as we head into our sixth week of on the ground instruction at our institution. Hopefully they are able to see, in spite of being in an online only format this semester, that I have continued to put my all into their instruction as I always do. However, I have to say I'm grateful to *only* teach four classes in the spring given all that is happening both personally and professionally these days. Technically, with running two separate grants and the High-Impact Scholar business, I should have three course reductions. Not to mention the idea of writing a textbook with a colleague that is on the horizon...hopefully that will keep until 2021 at least...!
Yes, Dad's head would probably be spinning if we were engaging in conversation this morning as we used to do over our tea and toast. I miss his conversations as he genuinely cared about my work and would seek to understand what I was doing if it was unfamiliar to him. Right about now, he would probably say something like, "And to think those doctors said you had mental retardation - let's show them your PhD" or something to that effect referring to the early medical professionals who had written me off when talking to Mom and Dad about my "challenges" as an incorrectly diagnosed child. Hmm, this might come up in my talk I'll be giving on campus on Tuesday night. ;)
So, I'm sitting here enjoying the last couple of sips of my cup of coffee and am looking ahead at the remainder of this semester with joy - - just opening myself to all of it - - the possible rejection, the possible acceptance, the possible lack of acknowledgement, but the assurance of knowing I put my all into everything and that's the best I can do...and that's enough. What's in YOUR cup? What are you spilling out (in a good way) to and for others?
I loved reading about Cup of JOY's beginnings:) Megan you are so giving in many ways. As you share cup of JOY with me it makes me feel empowered to do more especially after reading about "what will spill out of me" if I am rattled, I will choose kindness instead of frustration. Now I am a work in progress but totally willing to work hard at it:) Thank you so much for sharing stories about your dad and tea<3
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